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Bequi where are you??? i was feeling so frustrated tonight and i thought « what is wrong??? » and then realized that it’s because i haven’t talked with you in a while!!! hey, i’m going to call you! forget about texas, come here, you’ll teach Com. 114 and your students will hate you… we’ll talk about how much our students hate us together, and grade together, and complain together, and make fun of life together, and talk about men together, and… texas is just so boring, think about cow skulls and constant heat and drought… you don’t want that, snow and cold are much better, and if it’s the farmer/cowboy that you need, we have that here too!!! i’m calling you!

See? This is what you get for not being on IM when I want to chat with you! I chat with myself at you Well, your pin and news article are on their way. I put them in the mail today–after 5pm though, so it’s as if I mailed it tomorrow.

(I gotta use my big vocabulary words while I can. I teach level 2 and 3 so big vocabulary doesn’t get much use at my day job)

So anyway, you can’t leave Indiana! Who’ll help me navigate the labrinth of campus parking and the conundrum of registration?

It’s the snow! I’ve scientifically proven it. I was all happy and energetic till I woke up this morning and we had a lot of snow and my car went sliding around (fortunately not into anything too important like a tree or a slow-moving pedestriam). Then . . . Dr. Tanner hates my chapter 4! He’s appalled and embarrassed and befuddled by it. Oh well, I’m re-writing it now. At least the good part is that he wants it simpler, with less information, instead of wanting me to do more. So anyway… go to www.argh.com www.argh.net and, best of all www.argh.org. The last one is so annoying! Yes, I’ve gotten to the point of typing in random words to see if they are websites. Anyway, hang in there! I just told Phyllis I got into Purdue and she was SO excited!! Things are always the worst in the winter. Spring is coming, at least. And then we can get together and grade papers and eat Chinese food like in the good old days! I like Purdue more and more, compared to Texas.

mom says: go to Hawaii, i’ve always wanted to visit the place!

so i have three options: 1: stay here 3 more years and try to become Dr. Moussu for real; 2: go to BYU Hawaii and teach there for 2 years… and come back here to finish the deal; 3: become serious and write a dissertation proposal by May so that I can get a research grant from TESOL… between 5 and 25 thousand dollars per year… which means staying here but with the idea that i don’t need to depend on other people’s money anymore… 4: quit. ah, naw, Dan is right, i’m not a quitter, it’s just too easy… after all, i’ve already survived half a damn winter here, without breaking my neck (but my knees are beautifully green, blue, purple…)… so i can survive another 3 winters i guess. but holly cow, this place is BORING, i’m going to need to buy a couple 100 more DVDs if i decide to stay here! I AM BORED I AM BORED I AM BORED! when am i going to finally move my fat behind and do something with myself??? so, any suggestions anyone?

i miss my friends!!! things are going well here, but i need a GOOD friend, someone i can talk to, someone i can trust, someone i can do things with instead of grading papers… someone i can laugh with, someone who’s going to make me feel better, like Bequi, who can make me feel so much better in two sentences!!! I don’t know how i would have survived that far without Bequi. MSN has saved me i wish you were here though, i miss our conversations in our office, our grading of papers with chinese food, our conversations about men, our « complaining » sessions, our time spent doing weird and fun things together…

I had a weird but nice conversation with a student late last night (and my supervisor keeps telling me to keep my distances with my students!) he IM’ed me to ask why i was not on a date … i don’t know why, but he asked me about my health, and i kind of told him a lot of things… then we discussed religion… i told him i was mormon… i even told him about the bullet mark under my bra… hehe… he was drunk, and i’m hoping he won’t remember too much of that conversation!

Bob wants to go out with me, also, it seems… i told him i needed friends, dammit (sad, he’s a cool guy, about the right age, makes me laugh)! the other guy keeps hoping to date me too, and that scares me… oh, and that guy who took me « on a date » and had me pay for dinner and didn’t even say thanks for dinner and i had a nice evening CALLED ME today and WANTS ME TO CLEAN MY HOUSE SO WE CAN HANG OUT HERE!!!! maybe there’s something in the air here that makes people COMPLETELY INSANE!!!!?????!!!!

that’s it, i’m quitting school for sure at the end of this semester! sure, 99.8% sure! put all my stuff in someone’s basement, sell the rest, sell my car, and take a year off to do whatever else somewhere else, not Europe, not the US, no french or english-speaking country! maybe i won’t do ANYTHING and just vedge at my parents’ house for a year! maybe i’ll go to japan to be shocked by something new… goodbye everyone, i’m leaving, i’m calling my parents tomorrow to tell them, and school too, to ask for a year off, and a doctor, to ask for a medical certificate… or a psychiatrist.

i am so tired mentally… why am i still in school? i don’t want to work, i don’t want to study, i don’t want to write papers and to grade papers anymore! i want to go away from this world… maybe i’ll go to south america like i always wanted to do, and teach people who care and live in a world that knows what it is to suffer and fight to stay alive. the french always complain… and i can’t stand the way people look at me there. every time i go there, i want to scream and kick them in the balls. americans used to not look at me this way… but now that being french is not so popular anymore, they do too… i have to defend the french when i don’t even feel french sometimes. i am swiss, i mind my own business, i don’t ask for anything, i want to be alone. oh, and another thing: how can i get rid of someone who is really starting to scare me to death by wanting so much to date me????? can’t people leave me alone??? do i have to be ugly and mean to be left alone again?? just because i use lipstick and smile doesn’t mean that i am a different person, dammit! i am tired of people who are against the french and against me and who make me loose sleep because i worry so much! yes this world is corrupt, going to its end, stupid, evil, mean, illogical, greedy… everyone is like that, me too i’m sure. let’s hope we just get bombed once and for all, so the whole deal’s over soon.

hey hey now, don’t dis the answers. i personally wrote the first one on my quiz. It makes sense doesn’t it? Anyways i think i could get youinto trouble for writing this, can’t i? Using students answers as forms of entertainment? Or is it to show the readers of this blog how sad our class really is? In return for my silence i request an A in the class with no work required. Just kidding, i wont tell anyone.

From my dear students: they had to read a text that said « love means never having to say ‘what do you mean?’ » and this is what they wrote on their quiz:

love is never having to say:
- i love you
- what you mean
- you were wrong
- it
- i do
- i’m sorry
- you’ll be sorry
- i don’t understand
- a thing
- what i really meant was…
- i don’t know the answer (wait, was that the answer to the quiz question or was that a message from a student who hadn’t done the reading??)

i hate this world, i hate to live today.

Classic quotations from your students! Much more fun than « Almost people likes chocolate. » Also, nice quotation from George Bernard Shaw. So, did you decide to go to Michigan?

CONGRATULATIONS TO REBEKAH!!!!!! you’re the best, but I knew that already

This is the true joy of life, being used for a purpose recognized by yourself as a mighty one, being a true force of Nature instead of a feverish little clod of ailments and grievances complaining that the world will not devote itself to making you happy. I am of the opinion that my life belongs to the whole community, and, as long as I live, it is my privilege to do for it whatever I can.
I want to be thoroughly used up when I die. For the harder I work, the more I live. I rejoice in life for its own sake. Life is no brief candle to me. It’s a sort of splendid torch which I’ve got to hold up for the moment and I want to make it burn as brightly as possible before handing it on to future generations.
~ George Bernard Shaw

You don’t care? neither do I! I have to meet with 21 students today, 11 tomorrow, 6 on Thursday, and 11 on Monday! AAGGHHH!! It’s snowing AGAIN, when will it ever stop??? I’m happy though, I’m working on my new computer from my office with a wireless internet connection to the Purdue wireless system… it’s incredibly fast and technology just amazes me! Have seen 4 students so far… I guess the next one is late… ttyl. and WRITE!!! I’m going to Michigan this weekend, am burnt out right now… if it’s not snowing too much…