so this is my current theory on forgiving: if i forgive the people who have hurt me, i might set myself up for more deceptions and hurt. but i might not. there’s a chance, either way. yes, the people i forgive might hurt me again, but really, they might see that they’ve hurt me and never want to do it again, learn from it, realize the importance of our friendship… something like that. if i don’t forgive them, i’ve lost friends for sure. no going back. i’ve lost the possibility that we could become friends again and NEVER hurt each other like that again. i’ve lost the chance of spending a few more good moments with good people… i’ve lost the power to build something new and something better. and i’ve lost the chance that i may become a better person, not just because i’ve forgiven, but because there’s always something we can learn from others when we allow them to teach us. maybe we’ll be friends again for only a short time… but friendship is gold, it is a big or small union of the hearts, but still a union of the hearts of people who want to share, give, help, care, love, cry, learn, suffer, live, and laugh together.

so i’ll always forgive– and i’ve always forgiven. it might take a while, but i’ll always forgive. i love my friends too much, i can’t stay mad at anyone for a long time. i love to love people.